7 years and All My Children

First of all ..I realized that I am nearly 7 years out of addiction. It was August 2004 when I got on a plan and started my journey out of addiction. During that time I couldnt imagine a life without addiction let alone a life as a wife and mother. I never allowed myself to even believe that was possible. My blessing are overflowing and I am grateful for a God who has bestowed such amazing gifts in me.

Recently I been blessed to have all my children together. I feel as if I am the mother to 45 kids, one I gave birth to. Its been so fun to see all of them together. Here is the first round of kiddos with Ethan- and I cant wait for the next few months when they are all together!!

Natasha

Madeline

Macall ( my favorite since shes so sweet and he looks like he is being tortured!)

Katie

Hayley (she says she doesnt love babies, but he loved her!)

Grace

Carolene

Hayley and Grace came over to put together Ethans swing- what a huge help!

Sweet Seniors

Mothers Day

Sunday threw me off my rocker completely. I wasn't ready for the feelings that arose on Sunday morning. As I was feeding Ethan before we headed out to the dog park (my request for mothers day!) I began to weep. WEEP!!! It dawned on me that I never thought this day would come. I have wanted to be a mother for as long as I can remember. I tried for years to tell myself that I didn't care if it happened or not- but God put a desire in my heart to be a mom when I was born!

After 3 years of trying, losing our first baby and one of my tubes, 2 early miscarriages, failed fertility treatments, and finally being told we wouldn't have a baby- I thought FOR SURE this day would never be here. I looked into the eyes of my son and was overwhelmed by love for him and appreciation for the God that granted me this little miracle. His entry into thsi world was tough and tramatic- but at the end of the day I would do it all over again!! In fact I hope by next mothers day we are expecting another miracle. =)

addicted

Bryan and I are both addicts and are well aware that its potentially genetic. We have had many conversations on how we will keep our children from harmful addictions and keep focused on the positive (sports, school, social work). Ethan has formed his own addiction...the paci!! And dont you dare try to keep it away from him.