Balancing Act

I am not so good at this balancing act of working mom. Not at all. As soon as I think I have it down I realize I have completely neglected some part of my life.

I love my job. God really has put me an amazing job. I am humbled that I God put me in a position that allows God to speak through me to teens. The issue? I LOVE MY KIDS! I adore each of my students and want to walk side by side with them. I want to go to EVERY game, do one-on-one discipleship, grab coffee, go take lunch to them at school, teach Bible Study and Sunday School, have 3 yearly mission trips. BUT thats just not possible. We have so many amazing students that yearn for community and I am trying my best to do waht I can- but honestly somedays I FAIL!



And then God gave me the amazing blessing of being Bryan's wife. He is THE MOST patient and understanding husband. Not growing up in the church he had no idea the hours a youth minister keeps. He never knew all the thing he would be dragged to early Saturday mornings, or the nights of take out since I was eating dinner with a student. I want to spend all my time with him. I want to make sure he has a great dinner waiting for him when he gets home. I want to make sure the house is cleaned and all his clothes are washed. But alas- sometimes I am short and snippy, and impatient, and put the students needs before his.


And then God gave us the miracle baby. Oh what a precious boy. And right now I am his world- he can't do anything without help.

I am so torn- I dont seem to balance well at all. I try to make sure everyones needs are met (at least the bare minumum but sometimes honestly that doesnt happen. How do working moms do it. 24 hours in the day doesn't seem like enough. Even now as I am writing this I am thinking that I should probobly be getting dinner ready or finding a service project for November, or writing a letter to a kid that has been having a hard time in school, or cleaning up the toys from the floor, or getting the laundry out of the dryer, or brainstorming on what to get my dad for his birthday. But all that makes me want to do is curl up in my pjs and go to bed. I AM SO RIDICULOUSLY thankful for all the blessings God has given me... an amazing job, amazing students, great friends, a loving husband, and a miracle baby- I just dont know how to juggle it all!