Holy Geez. So, very much has happened in the last 2 months. Best of all we were HIGHLY SUPRISED at the news that we are PREGNANT. "Marshmallow" (has Bryan calls it) will be arriving in July. After being told for years that we would never be pregnant, and then having a very difficult pregnancy with Ethan we thought we were done having a kiddos. God is so faithful- and knew the desires of my heart for sure. We are going to have our hands full with 2 under 16 months, but I am ready for the challenge. God knows His amazing plan, and my job is to have peace and enjoy the ride. And that is what I will do.
Ethan is growing up so fast all of a sudden. He is expressive, and funny, and stubborn and loud! He is a boy through and through.
I am working on being thankful in all circumstances. It is certainly easy to be close to the Lord when you recognize your blessings... when things are going your way.. when the sun is shining. But when life gets overwhelming, and things dont get your way, it seems harder for me to keep focused on my blessings. They don't disappear when I am stressed out. When something is exactly what I planned, God doesn't revoke his love or his blessing.. or his PLAN! He is just as present, just as loving and just as graceful.
So in the midst of dirty diapers, morning sickness, stressful work days, uncertainty about our future- I cling on that God doesn't change. And that He is always faithful. Sara Groves song is a great reminder
Morning by morning I wake up to find
The power and comfort of God’s hand in mine
Season by season I watch Him, amazed
In awe of the mystery of His perfect ways
All I have need of, His hand will provide
He’s always been faithful to me.
I can’t remember a trial or a pain
He did not recycle to bring me gain
I can’t remember one single regret
In serving God only, and trusting His hand
All I have need of, His hand will provide
He’s always been faithful to me.
This is my anthem, this is my song
The theme of the stories I’ve heard for so long
God has been faithful, He will be again
His loving compassion, it knows no end
All I have need of, His hand will provide
He’s always been faithful, He’s always been faithful
He’s always been faithful to me.
